Late Night Thoughts

It's late at night here at Shepherd. Jack and I just got off the phone with Kip, Gus, Maggie and Patrick. These last 10 or so days have been filled with laughter.... frustration.... sadness.... joy.... fear.... sorrow.

Everyone asks us, how are you? How is Jack? Some days it's like nothing has changed....Some days its like nothing will ever be the same again.

On the days where it seems like nothing has changed, Jack tells me his goals are to FEEL with his fingers, continue to follow in his dad's footsteps and be an actor and play xbox with his brother Gus. He zooms around in his wheelchair (too fast), hangs out with his new life long friends watching movies and looking for fancy cars.

But on the other days, the ones where nothing will be the same again, I watch my kid cry because he's not sure he will ever walk again and the realization of the life he knew has changed forever. He talks about how no one will really understand what it's like, aside from his friends here...how he is intimidated by the water and he's not sure he will ever want to go back in it.

It's hard to say how we are.

We are mad that we are stuck in this waiting game with no guarantees.

We are grateful that we have found so many loving, kind souls who restore our faith in humanity.

We are thankful that Jack is alive.

We are sad that we will have to leave our bubble here at Shepherd.

We are laughing through tears because we make jokes about poop, dare I say SHIT, all the time.

It's no picnic, no ones life is. We all have struggles, mostly though, connecting on a genuine level and feeling love is all any one really wants. And if we can all do that with a little bit of laughter, tears and....shit...well then I think "everything little thing is gonna be alright"-Bob Marley

Thank you everyone, for joining us on this journey.

Love Cammie & Jack